Most people are scared of dogs, spiders, rats and clowns. To be honest, I don’t like clowns. They are creepy. But those common fears are not the biggest one I deal with.
It’s embarrassing to even confess it—let alone write a post about it. But here is it is. My biggest fear is succeeding.
What? That’s crazy.
That’s what you’re probably saying right now. But it is the truth. It’s not because I don’t want to be a bestseller romance author whose books take up residence on reader’s keeper shelf and who can make a living writing. Oh, I do so what that more than anything. I want my books made into movies or Netflix originals or some other show. I want to spend my life writing stories that entertain both my readers and me.
But what if that happens and I’m not really good enough. They call it imposter syndrome. Do I think I’m not worth having it. Maybe. That’s why I writing this revealing post instead of talking about clowns. This is me owning my fear and destroying its control over me.
I read a New York Times article about Jennifer Lopez and she said in the article, “I want what I deserve.” I too want that. I want what I deserve and I’m not going to allow anyone even myself to stop that from happening. When I decided to write this, I thought I would be shaking while I type this but I’m not. I feel strong and bigger. I’m claiming my space. I’m claiming my dreams and proclaiming to the world that I will not stop. Can I do it?
It won’t be easy. I will have to fight. I will get beat. I will cry. I will get angry. I will feel defeated. I will get tired. I may lose hope some days.
I can’t stop. I deserve this. I want this.
Hell yeah! It’s mine.
Now, it’s time for you to get what you deserve. Go get it. If you are ready to proclaim it then please share with me what is rightfully yours.
And please help me and share this post with your friends. I want the world to know. I’m not hiding it anymore.
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2 thoughts on “A Historical Romance Author’s Big Fear”
From what I’ve read on other forums, fear of success is actually quite common among authors. It’s right up there with imposter syndrome.
I wonder why that is. I suspect we worry that we are not good enough when we truly are.